*｡✿*ﾟ‘ﾟ･✿.｡*真冬の星座たちに守られて*｡✿*ﾟ‘ﾟ･✿.｡*

I was all at sea,

just crying for the moon.

Honestly,

why bother to remember you?

Because

You probably just wanted to clean me out of your head.

Be my guest!

I did not trew in the sponge,

You would not forgive me no matter how I explain it to you. 

I saved my breath at the end,

I noticed what is more important.

Ever,

right now, 

always,

I cut out to be a good lover,

when you lied to me that I did not worth being treated that way,

I couldn't agree with you more.

I grinned.

YOU,

had been off my back,

I 'll be the better half of a man who is luckier than you.

Except thinking of you, and loving you.
hoo~ I would do anything.
opened my diary,
re-organized my mind.

You never loved me,
thoughout,
you were perfunctory,
neglecting my feeling again and again.

I really really thought that,
I was weak,
couldn't go on with this.

This relationship,

not wroth  hesitating about, 
not worth being considered.

Not worth for me that I loved you.

This kind of memories,

not worth being mentioned,
not worth thinking of,
not worth crying for.

Huh~ This relationship,
should had been abandoned
thousands years ago.
Shouldn't had wasted my time on it,
to look for miracles.

This kind of you,

not worth abominating with,
not worth feeling regret for.

Huh~ I decided not to destroy my life,

put you away with my diary.

*Locked*

No more than 16 days, I will be living in another part of the city.

 

Burnaby is always a dream place for most people in Vancouver, except those who has tons of golds...

I felt in love with this name "Burnaby" since I first knew about it, and no doubt that was a good insight.

 

Moving in Burnaby makes me feel refreshing. No matter what had happened in the past, they are only memories now. Not only does moving on from the past hard, but having a new start is also not as easy as we think. I always want to hide from those who I was foreced to know. Therefore, it is a bright idea to leave the old city behind, and to create a new relationship-circle in a new place. On the other hand, how would I assume that I will not regret for what I am doing at this point? Like forgeting my past...Certainly, there is somehow a scar that will never fade in my heart. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Your EQ is 160

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Yea, I know. There was a long time that i had forgotten to record what was goin'on with me...huhhh..I.... went back to China, and???? I remembered that i sticked my schedual together made them like sweetmeat..erhee...for sure I met many many people, they were all just finishing school this year. Some of them even have their part time job in this special hot summer. It was such a wonderful vacation for me actually, yet i went to some clubs.

 

"waste of time." This phrase just aint keep out of my mine. I quickly went back to Canada, started my new school's life. I know what i am doing so far, at lease i feel my life more substantial.

 

我终于发现---我已经很久没有回顾自己的足迹. 当我再次重新拾起拼音输入法，感觉有点别扭. 今天是9.11, 昨天打电话給我可爱的爸妈还没有发现是中国的9.11呢! 9.11 最终的结果就是变成了年历里的另一个世界性纪念日. 对于很对当时的孩子来说, 记得最清楚的并不是当时飞机冲向大厦的恐慌, 而是当晚翡翠台暂停播映了《七姐妹》......实际上不是啦, 记得那晚上第一架飞机横穿插在那伟大的建筑上时, 第一个感觉---惋惜,第二---惨了,肯定死了很多人,第三---不会真的有这种恶梦的可能吧? 当时的意识越想越模糊, 根本不能相信所见. 不过怎么说也好, 事情总算是告一段落.

 

回到中国的感觉? 最能感受到幸福莫过于见到爹地妈咪. 但是要是平心地想静气地去回答自己. 在广州就只有堕落的颓废的奢侈生活. 是的, 我没有否认那是一种享受, 不过, 越是浸溺在这种环境, 人也跟着日渐腐败. 最终只会觉得无所作为, 日日无所事事, 游手好闲. 接着的, 也就无法想像了. 于是, 赶紧回到朴素的加拿大(hahaha~), 重新开始新的学习, 最近发现时间飞逝, 一天的课, 笑一笑又过了, 而且学的东西都特别有意义. 接着下来的就是cooktrainning 12 的 foodsafe. 我相信我一定可以达到一定的地位, 还有几个烹调比赛, 是时候发掘一下自己了. 今年的Dancing没有了, 有一点难过, 是应该找个时间和Ms. Zerner聊一聊. 下一个星期三就是我学车之旅的开始, 游遍Maple Ridge...haha... nice.

                                         

                                                       

                                                      

                                                 

I said to my mom last night: Mom~! I am crossed in love....and she replied: Dont be so sad honey, just move on and find another boy.

Finally, i laugh at myself....

How many guys are good really in the world? Can anyone tell me? actually there are a lot, but if one them belongs to us or not, then we should ask the God..... they may be very good, but before they really need a family, they dont need a serious relationship, at lease not really really LOVE, right ?~! yes, i do pause anything, to think, to think of, to think about what i really got and what i should enjoy now. my friends found me when i thought the world was gonna end. i love them, i wanna say~!!!! THANK YOU, MY CLASSMATES~! I LOVE YOU GUYS.  we've knew each other already 12 years by now!!! i believed that our relationship will lasts forever....

                                

 

 

 

 

  基于 Bean Bean 的要求,供大家欣赏一下作为 "红磨坊" prostitite 的基本造型, 虽然, 有可能老一辈的会觉得这样子的女孩子不够"矜持"---(想起当年化学老师不论黑白是非都说我们班的女孩子不够矜持,弄得我们"一头雾水"), 现在想起来,对矜持这个词的定义也有点混淆. 对于这张照片,亦有人曾称赞父亲遗传给我的"照片灵感因子"很出色...我也希望大家带着这种眼光去评价吧?! 虽然说服不了自己,常常还是遗憾于自己不是一个美女, 但身边的朋友让我懂得了"自信就是美"的道理.从而获得不少的生活体验...大家一起来挖掘自己更自信的一面吧~!

 

 

How to make a Callince

Ingredients: 5 parts competetiveness 1 part humour 5 parts instinct

Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Top it off with a sprinkle of fitness and enjoy!

    之前一段时间电脑的MSN功能完全进入死亡状态,因此也使我颓废嘞好一段时间...现在好了,什么都没事了~~一晃眼,已经三个月没有记录过自己的经历.不过不提亦罢.只是希望好好珍惜现在,过好这个5月和六月.将要成年的我应该更加会为自己着想.踏出人生的赌博第一步,就需要勇气而且还要甘心地走下去,两步,三步,四步...

      不过要说重点还是那部钢琴,一个最普通的 keyboard..我喜欢的那个太贵嘞...也只好将就一下,怎么说还只是在homestay里面...这个keyboard我没意见,虽然音质实在是很差~~买了就买了,不要厌弃嘛~~~突然间很怀念自己家的琴子,觉得自己已经很`狠`狠`幸福嘞,虽然我到现在还一直记不住在家里那部琴的牌子,但是又有多少人能像我一样幸福呢? ...我想,还是先弹着吧,终有一天,我会换YAMAHA的C3NEO/SW3  ~~~  那部最具现代风格的三角...       

              

                 

 

 

                                              

                                    Valentine's Day 快要到了,一直都盼望幸福的 Valentine's Day 始终都没有出现过在这的18年里面. 线补在袜子上的痕迹就像似是而非的伤疤,不疼却永远都去不掉,只有把袜子扔掉的那一天,才会获得心灵的自由. 过去Valentine's Day 渴望收到真诚作为礼物,现在却不为 couples 眼红.或许上天认为那些日子从来不属于, yet 永远不应该属于. 没有人为开心过,也没有人为哭过.有的只是每年 Valentine's Day 静静地陪爸爸妈妈三人烛光晚餐微笑度过. 今年,的爸爸妈妈总算可以有一个浪漫的 Valentine's Day 嘞. 因为这样,这么多年来,自己终于还是要尝试一下寂寞的 Valentine's Day ,是这么一种滋味的. 虽然歌词说过其实爱对了人,情人节每天都过. 但是如果 Valentine's Day 没有人爱,那对于这单身的来说就是她一生中最萧条的一日.  那天的决定,也莫过于抱着爱吃的 小白菜, 在家里想着未来的谁给她送上她最深爱的胡萝卜.

                                      

 

                                        

 

 

  

 

 

 

 

 

  总结一下这些日子吧~~A block 学了的 dancing 暂时有....hiphop,balley, 踢踏舞,夏威夷舞,倒立体能训练,印度舞.~~~噢噢,原来已经不少东西嘞...最近怎么好像很忙.但又作不出什么伟绩.,dancing 对于我来说变得一天比一天 boring. Not that exciting any more.

      不知道为甚麽,最近dancing老师的新课题那么'诡异'(最近习惯用这个词).堂堂课都是在练习侧手翻`正面翻`倒立...对于我这个从来都没试过侧手翻的人,被迫天天'翻'起来... 倒立就更加不用说嘞.对着墙倒立,人还没有倒起来,头第一时间就撞到墙上去~~wow~好勇!!?   还不如说自己'damn'````

 

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